Hilde

Yesterday was so inspiring! I'm a music student, but haven't felt like I've known how to use my music. For the last year or so I haven't been part of any worship team. Throughout the last few years I've been thinking about how we use music in worship. I had an experience about four years ago that made me realize that we not only can say things to God through music, but he can also say things to us! Music is actually a tool for Him to pour out His spirit over us! After that experience I've met more people believing that and experiencing it. And somewhere in my heart I have been wanting it and longing to see it more, even though I for different reasons haven't thought a lot about it the last year or so. But after thursday I have been so useasy and longing, and yesterday I took some time with God, and I felt like he told me that He will bring me into that, and that he will use me musically. When my church gathered later that afternoon, I shared these thoughts. Our church has received words about music earlier as well, and I believe it encouraged people. I also received a word about this through Ylva afterwards, which was really encouraging. I really think God will use music to reveal and pour out his power in Oslo KF, Oslo in general and everywhere christians gather together to sing and play!

Today I started looking forward to the summer. I've been enjoying all the snow so much, even through all of March, but as I was riding my bike today I saw the first spring flowers, and was simply delighted:)

I came back from Bergen today. I've been to KF's easter conference. Unfortunately I had to leave before it was over (but it was worth it since I get to spend time at home with mom, dad and my brother). It was really inspiring and good. Hopefully I will read a lot more bible and become better at hearing God's voice after this. I wanna see the world praise God! :D 

Actually it was my first time in Bergen ever, which is a little bit strange. I liked it though.

How can I know that what I believe is true is true? How can I know that God is who the Bible says he is? I’ve been spending some time with people that believe differently than me, and it always makes me question my own faith. It is very important to do that, because how else can I know that I do not only believe out of habit or comfort or other feelings? I think it is important that I believe what is true, not just what is pleasurable.

I saw Elvira Nikolaisen tell Fredrik Skavland about her beliefs during “Først og sist” on Friday. She grew up in a believing home, and used to believe in God herself. Now she doesn’t. She said she came to a point where her brains said something different about the truth than her feelings or habits. That made me think: do I believe what I believe simply because that’s what I’ve always done, and that’s what feels comfortable? It’s more important to me what is really true than what feels comfortable. Sometimes doubt comes over me, and this was one of the times. I started asking myself: How can I find out what is most likely to be true?

I’ve heard about people walking away from their faith because of doubt. Somehow it is easy to think that I should try something else for a while, quit praying and reading my bible for a while to find out what is true, because it might allow me to find out that something else is true. But then I thought to myself: Hilde, if someone tells you something that you’re in doubt about, how can you find out if it is true? -Probably not by stopping thinking about it. Probably not by talking to someone else about something different either. I would rather have to question it, study it, do research on it. And I thought: to find out if the bible is true you’ll have to read it more! Study it, do researches on it, test it! If it is true, you’ll discover it.

And thinking about all my Christian life, I think I already have discovered it.

What a great weekend! Yesterday I.K. and I went to watch "Birkebeinerrennet" at Lillehammer. It's 54 km long crosscountry ski race. My dad was attending it, but unfortunately I didn't see him during the race. There are many thousands racing, so I guess it would be hard to notice everyone. Anyway, I.K. and I borrowed my mom and dad's car, and drove up to Sjusjøen. We took our time and stopped for a few minutes by I.Ks house in Moelven on our way there. Then we came to Sjusjøen at about 1230. We were hoping to see dad or someone else we knew, but we weren't patient enough to stay for more than about an hour, so we drove down to Lillehammer and watched people coming in to the stadium for a while. I know dad passed us, but I didn't see him.

It was a beautiful day. The temperature was good and the sun was shining. I.K. and I had brought home made pizza for lunch, as we had left overs from supper on friday. I learnt that coke is not a good drink for an outdoor trip during the winter. I felt like I should have been drinking hot chocolate or something, and for some reason it just didn't taste very good out there in the snow. :)

Dad came with us on the way back. We were all tired when we got home. I was suprised, because I didn't think I had been doing anything tireing, but obviously it must have been tireing to drive so far and to get all that fresh air. It's a great feeling though, to be tired from being outdoors.